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Entry tags:
an introduction
Passengers: Malekith + Viktor
Location: Observatory
Date: soon after pairings
Summary: Mr The Accursed receives his temporary warden
Warnings: none yet
It's always in the last place you look, they say—necessarily, because yes, that is how the progression of events works—and in this case it also happens to be the first. Viktor has glimpsed this person in the Observatory more than once; when he thinks of where he ought to look, the image of that tall broad body standing in front of the stars is what immediately comes to mind. So that's where he goes.
The ride to the third arm isn't long enough, so he takes the elevator back to the axis, and then out again. He's only catastrophizing, he tells himself, while his body gently lifts. All kinds of people gather all kinds of names, and not all of them are indicative. Besides, it isn't like there's an audience waiting. This will be fine.
In through the nose, out through the mouth, steady.
OK: go.
The door to the Observatory whispers before and again behind him. The first tap of his crutch is quiet, metallic on the polished floor. Ceiling sweeps overhead like the ribs of some great machine. The window arcs wide like the universe has opened its eye to stare into him directly. Declining this assertive invitation to feel tiny, Viktor instead breathes, imagines his presence radiating to all the edges of the room, like the rings around the stone, and walks forward.
"Hello?"
—is not the strongest opener, but he's aiming for neutral, and you can't get much more neutral than hi.
Location: Observatory
Date: soon after pairings
Summary: Mr The Accursed receives his temporary warden
Warnings: none yet
It's always in the last place you look, they say—necessarily, because yes, that is how the progression of events works—and in this case it also happens to be the first. Viktor has glimpsed this person in the Observatory more than once; when he thinks of where he ought to look, the image of that tall broad body standing in front of the stars is what immediately comes to mind. So that's where he goes.
The ride to the third arm isn't long enough, so he takes the elevator back to the axis, and then out again. He's only catastrophizing, he tells himself, while his body gently lifts. All kinds of people gather all kinds of names, and not all of them are indicative. Besides, it isn't like there's an audience waiting. This will be fine.
In through the nose, out through the mouth, steady.
OK: go.
The door to the Observatory whispers before and again behind him. The first tap of his crutch is quiet, metallic on the polished floor. Ceiling sweeps overhead like the ribs of some great machine. The window arcs wide like the universe has opened its eye to stare into him directly. Declining this assertive invitation to feel tiny, Viktor instead breathes, imagines his presence radiating to all the edges of the room, like the rings around the stone, and walks forward.
"Hello?"
—is not the strongest opener, but he's aiming for neutral, and you can't get much more neutral than hi.

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When Malekith turns, sweeps his attention outside, there's a sense of vacancy left in the space no longer commanded by his field of view, and the plane of his back has a cooling effect on the air behind him. Far from only dismissive, the back can be a very favourable shape.
"I did," Viktor says, and enters this space.
The window is vast; there's plenty of room for the both of them. Some years ago he'd have stood here with his cane tucked under his hands, shoulders squared, and lifted his chin to the view; today he's slouching and slanted, but his eyes reflect stars all the same. The universe must now bear his scrutiny for a while.
"Navarch Minerva approached me with a proposal, and I accepted. Admittedly, I'm still adapting to some of the details, but, compared to your position, much of it is trivial." Much; not all. "And, to answer your first question... this is an ancient debate, and will doubtless continue as long as sapient creatures exist to perpetuate it."
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"Soothing my ego?" He muses, those darkened eyes meeting the other now.
Of course there was a proposal, and he was awfully curious what would bring a person to take up such a position. Without needing to speak it, surely its been established the thoughts on this place and its moral dilemma. That it takes people unwillingly and chooses for them what it deems must be corrected. One of many things potentially in conflict of one's ethos; of a greater ethos should one exist. Something which, for the record, Malekith believed did not. Each culture worked on its own set of laws and morals, but this all aside.
"I've lived my decisions," he says as if he's come anywhere near close to accepting the truths of his own reality. Spoiler: he hasn't. Though the Svartalfer is awfully convinced his life of defiance and his choices earned him some sort of elevated sense of self. Perhaps he'll expand on this: "In far more hostile environments."
Body turning: "I think, you have too."
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"That's an easy guess," comes out less blunt than it could purely by virtue of his naturally gentle voice. "It's unlikely anyone aboard was driven to accept this contract by dissatisfaction with their perfectly comfortable life."
He is not intimidated, giant elf. Neither is he becoming unfriendly, mind—this is simply another leg of the conversation.
"Such a warden would be completely insufferable. Destined for the airlock."
He's probably kidding.
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Nevertheless, it all rewards something almost a laugh--and a reward that truly was as it pushed through his lips in one single low and humored breath. He's no stranger to blunt, Viktor. Let them talk plainly (as plainly as someone who talks like he does can get). Dare he even admit there's some enjoyment in all this chatter. For what reasons he won't yet sort.
Instead, the elf will propose: "One could take upon this calling from a desire to help others--this trait is not always accompanied by histories of grief." A beat, watching the lines of that mouth thinning. "yet I think this is the modus operandi of one Navarch Minerva," to give a proposal impossible to refuse, "do you?"
And here they return to this topic of ethics, but they'll get back there in a few.
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Now Viktor does turn his head. That he must necessarily raise his chin to meet Malekith's gaze in no way lessens the qualities of his own: acute, analytical, undaunted. Go ahead, it says. His yellow eyes capture the low light, and keep it, to seem almost lit from within.
Speaking into a pipe or an empty can to hear his own voice magnified back at him.
That's what the echo reminds him of.
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Back to the matter at hand, though. He's truly intrigued now and takes a moment or two as Viktor turned to face him. Seems to have struck a chord but he wonders what notes that chord plays. Perhaps it's his nihilism but this proposal wasn't even bait, it was honest.
So, he'll repeat. "Do you?"
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"Do I believe such people are being targeted intentionally?" His mouth turns down; he shakes his head. "No. I think wardens and inmates alike are selected for their potential compatibility with the program, and any seeming correlation with suffering is incidental. At some point, everyone grieves. Everyone struggles. It would be challenging to find someone who never has."
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Which was to say if these were the people targeted it made sense to justify it under the banner of appropriate candidates. Not that he's bothered. In fact, its smart, it's how most people get things done its just another notch in the matter of morals.
"Have you taken to your position?"
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"Too early to say. Technically, you've been aboard longer than I have... if not by much. A day or so, if I recall correctly."
He does. Outside permanent pairings, wardens aren't given much information about inmates—but he's studied the trifling amount they do have, over and over, all the time wishing there were more. The lack is immensely frustrating. How is he meant to do this job well if all its most crucial details are kept a mystery?
"Is this new for you? All this," lifting his chin to indicate the stars outside, "space. The ship. You seem to be taking it in stride."
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A few steps forward still until there was hardly any space between himself and the glass, "I remember a time before all this. It was called Ginnungagap. Space was small, quiet, and dark. Peaceful."
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The incredible responsibility of tending to the well-being of another person.
(Always thinking of that time he didn't.)
As for all this, he assumes it to mean the present situation; it doesn't occur to him to look further back. Certainly not back to before basically everything.
"Space was? You mean your space?"